I am totally embarrassed. I have been horrible these past few weeks about taking bump photos! Here is one from a few weeks ago, and one I snapped yesterday via my phone, since I have nothing better to show...
Last you heard, they were thinking I had Gestational Diabetes. Well, they were right. The first week, the medication worked pretty well and the days that I had high sugars I knew exactly why. These past two weeks, it's been harder, and my doctor is threatening me with the word Insulin, so I think shots may be in my not-so-distant future.
Other than that, I have been feeling pretty good most days. Other than low energy, I really do feel relatively normal, and I'm not really worried about going into pre-term labor like I did with Natalie anymore. She was born at 33 weeks 6 days, so that day is coming up. Once we get past that, I think I will feel better.
How far along? 32 weeks, 3 days
gain/loss: Around 15 pounds still. I haven't gained too much at all, it just seems to be re-distributing (kinda like last time)
Yes. Pants and tops, and a maxi dress! =)
Stretch marks? Yes.
heartburn, acne, tiredness, aches, charley horses in my toes and legs
Sleep: Getting more uncomfortable. I toss and turn and throw my leg pillow away, and I always wake up hot and sweaty no matter how cold it is in the room!
Best moment this week: Seeing
the baby at my ultrasound again, he is now around 4 lbs!
you told family and friends? Yes, everyone knows! It would be a little
hard to keep it a secret at this point!
Sleeping on my tummy, not feeling tired all the time. Stretching, and
being able to walk around without feeling
pain/pressure. I also miss being able to indulge in pregnancy cravings.
Movement: Tons. Mostly after I
eat! More sharp movements now that he's getting squished when he switches from head up to head down.
Food Cravings: Ice cream (chocolate marshmallow),
Chocolate milk, chocolate candy, Starbursts, Wheat thins, Fruit, pickles, (Yes
I'm a stereotypical preggo!) Thin Mints, and also an adversion to red meat. I'd
much rather have salad, seafood (no sushi or salmon though - I'm talkin crabmeat
YUM) or chicken lately. Also spicy food: buffalo chicken, salsa, hot sauce on
Not so new: White cheddar popcorn, regular popcorn, pb&j
sandwiches, Mt. Dew. and Starbucks hot chocolate.
NEW: sugar free chocolate pudding
you queasy or sick? Not really, I just stay away from anything that
looks like it might make me icky.
Have you started to show yet?
Oh yes. It has been obvious for weeks now!
Baby is a:
Bouncing baby boy!! Cameron Glenn =)
Belly Button in or
out: Not much left! I think it may pop out soon!
Wedding rings on or off? Still on but getting tighter. I don't know how much longer I'm going to be able to keep them on comfortably. I
kept them on all the way through delivery with Natalie so hopefully I will be
able to do that with this one as well. I don't know how I would feel if I
couldn't wear them!!
Happy or Moody most of the time:
Ask my hubby and he would probably say moody, but other than having no
sleep and being cranky I think I'm still a pretty happy camper. My Natalie keeps
Looking forward to: My maternity photos this Sunday! My PA trip the next weekend to meet some of my Knottie girls, and my baby shower the following weekend!! =)
NOT looking forward to:
Doctors changing my medication to Insulin, which is sounds like is more likely than not at this point. I've never had to stick myself with a needle, and I don't know if I can handle it. Also not looking forward to the weekly doctors visits which means MORE time I have to take off work, and starting at 34 weeks I have to go in TWICE a week, so that they can monitor his heart rate I think. Ugh. Why can't I just be pregnant? Why do they have to take all the fun out of it!? (Sorry, rant over lol)
There has been a lot going on around here lately! Here is what you have been up to lately...
New words include cracker, cookie, applesauce, shoes, socks, and the doozy....bumblebee!
You curl your tongue (just like mommy can!) and you now make "indian noises" covering your mouth and going "ahhhh ahhhh ahhh" So cute!
You know where your eyes, ears, nose, mouth, teeth, tongue and fingers are. You will only say "eyes" and you also do spirit fingers when we ask you where they are!
You have started climbing around more. Momma caught you upside down in the recliner, and also on top of your toychest. You are going to give Momma a heart attack!!
You love your "Bubble Guppies"! You grab the remote and give it to us saying "bubble guppies" and when we turn it on you love to climb up or chill out and then you just zone out and nothing we say registers with you anymore! You are starting to get Momma's "selective hearing" haha
You love to lay down on a pillow or a blanket and pretend to go "nigh-night" even when you are wide awake! You certainly know how to go to bed too, you tell us when you're ready by grabbing Monkey and your sippy cup and heading to the gate. After pjs and a diaper change you usually plop down on your tummy and settle right in with your arm wrapped around monkey. You are SO GOOD with bedtime, I don't know how we got so lucky.
Your answer for everything right now is "no" or "oh no" even when you mean "yes". Anytime and every time we ask you a question! It's a good thing that Daddy and Momma are so good at reading you to determine what you really mean!
You love bubble baths, but lately you have really loved getting in the shower and playing with the falling water! You are definitely going to love the pool and water park this summer!
You love sports! Daddy has definitely been influencing this, but now you say "hockey" whenever it is on! "Hooooockey hoooooockey!" You also yell and cheer and say "YAY!" whenever ANYONE scores, no matter if it's your team or not! You just love the goal horns!
You have been imitating all of us a lot lately! You talk on the phone like Nana, laugh like Momma, sit on the couch and lean like Daddy, and you LOVE your Poppy! You also like to sit and read just like Nana does, and we caught you!
We finally figured out what the gibberish that you were saying was, and it's "gotcha gotcha gotcha!" Nana chases you around and when she catches you that's what she says! You have been saying it a lot lately!
You love to go "buh-bye" and you say "see ya guys!" and run to the door, as long as you are leaving with us. If we are going without you??? TEARS and SCREAMS and TANTRUMS! You hate being left behind! You are also stellar when it comes to your carseat, you love to put your arms in yourself, and take them back out once we are where we are going! And on the way you love to point your finger at me and yell "GO GO GO!"
You love to pet the puppies and that's usually the first thing you do when they come inside is run over to the gate so that you can say "Puuuppies" and pet them. You also love to scold them when they bark, and it is so funny! You yell "heyyyyyy!" and point your finger and them and stamp your foot!
You are also in your "must dump everything on the floor" stage. You have a shopping cart full of toy food and your favorite game is turning it upside down, spilling out all the food, yelling "YAY!" and then spreading them ALL over the floor with your hands! You do the same thing with your blocks, AND your puzzle pieces!
Momma has been having so much fun with you lately, and I can't wait to take pictures with you and Daddy this weekend!
I will be linking up with Amanda @ A Royal Daughter for today's On My Heart post. Amanda's blog and the way she lives her life inspires me, which is what this post is all about.
I'm going to share something today that I haven't told anyone, not even my husband. I don't know how to talk to him about it, and I'm not sure that I won't be ok once everything is said and done, but right now, I have a very strong feeling in my heart.
I don't feel connected to my baby boy who is growing inside me.
When we found out we were pregnant, we were shocked. After the initial blow, we started to get excited. Then we found out it was a boy. While I always thought I wanted one of each, now I'm not so sure.
To be honest, I kind of feel like he's going to steal time from Natalie and I. I have always always wanted a girl. And now that I have her, and she's getting to such a fun point in her childhood, I don't want to share her with anyone. I don't want my time divided.
This makes me sad, because I feel like I don't love this little boy at all. I know that will probably change, but I had such a traumatic experience with Natalie, that she became all that more precious to me. I WANTED her. I feel like a terrible mother for not wanting Cameron too. And it's not even that I don't WANT him, I am excited and happy that we are pregnant. I just wish I had more time before Natalie isn't my only child anymore.
I keep thinking of all the things that I want to do with Natalie by herself before her brother gets here, and I know that I don't have time to do them. A lot of those things will have to wait until her brother is older, and it makes me sad.
I don't know how I would feel if he was a girl. I probably wouldn't feel the same, but maybe I would. I honestly don't know. I hope, then when he is here and all is said and done, that I feel differently.
I guess maybe a lot of it stems from the fact that I've never dealt with a boy baby. I've never changed a boy diaper, or bought little boy clothes.(except for my nephew - but that's different) I was excited for my sister to have a boy, but now that my turn is here, I find myself almost wishing he was a girl. Why am I doing this to him?
Please, someone out there tell me I'm not crazy. Tell me I'm going to fall in love with this little boy. Please tell me I have enough room in my heart and my life for both of them. Please tell me that Natalie isn't going to miss her "only child" status and is going to be a good big sister.
I'm not ready to be a Momma of two. I hope I can get ready - and fast.
Before we begin, I just want to say Happy Mother's Day to all my momma readers! I hope you had a great day and you are spoiled rotten with sleep, food and love!
I also want to personally apologize to Vicki and all of the MHR readers for not getting this posted on time today! I thought I had it set up to automatically post, but apparently that was not the case! I'm so sorry!
I last updated on April 12, 2013. You can view the full list here.
1. Blog at least twice a week. I think I accomplished this again. 2. My Hubby Rocks posts each Sunday. Go here to view them. 3. 52 in 52 updates
once a month(3/12 ) 4. Post Desire to Inspire posts once a
month. Here and here(3/12) 5. "Little Miss Natalie" posts
twice a month. Here and here(3/12)
24. Get a meal planning system going. Haven't gotten this finished yet. We did one week of it, but then kind of fell off the wagon. We will get started soon. 30. Update baby book monthly. Ha. I'll get to it eventually. 32. Finish 0-6 month scrapbook. Haven't touched it. Hopefully will have some time soon. 37. Bump shots weekly starting at 18 weeks. I've been pretty good at this. Missed a few weeks. I'm trying to remember! lol
45. Have a set bedtime and wakeup time and stick to it, even on weekends. I've got weekdays down pretty good, just need to stop sleeping in on weekends.
49. Read 25 books. (1/25) Read: Fifty Shades of Gray Currently: Fifty Shades Darker
That's it for now! Looks like a good start to me. My next update will be June 13!
When I saw this link up opportunity on Lena's blog a few weeks ago, I knew I had to join in. Body image is something that I think every girl struggles with at some point in their lives, and I have also dealt with personally for a good chunk of my life. There have been times when I have done something about it like pick my lazy butt up and get to the gym, and there are other times where I did nothing more than cry into my pillow when yet-another-stupid-boy called me fat or ugly.
Now that I have a daughter, I feel like it's even MORE important to feel comfortable with myself, just the way I am, so that I can lead by example for Natalie. Now, while I'm not currently "doing anything about it" I already have plans in place to get back into the gym, start my Waist Watcher Wednesday posts, remain accountable, and shed that baby weight. Then following that, get down to a place that FEELS healthy on the weight scale. I'm not SO worried about weight, more how I feel in my clothes and in my skin.
Also, at the same time I want to be ok with whatever point I am at in my weight loss. I want to feel confident and I am working on that. I am hoping that I will be successful in helping Natalie to have a positive self image as well. I don't know yet how exactly that will happen, other than to love her and tell her how beautiful she is, which isn't hard because she really is the most beautiful little girl to me!
On another note, more recently I have seen this great video that I am going to link here call the Dove Real Beauty Sketches, where girls describe themselves, and then a woman (or man) who has just had a brief conversation with them individually sit down with a sketch artist. The drawings are then placed side by side, and....well....just watch. It's amazing, sad, and revealing all at the same time.
Moral of the story:
You are more beautiful than you know. Embrace it. Live it. Flaunt it.